I was reading (working) at work a book by Zane called Total Eclipse of the Heart. Now anyone who reads knows that Zane's books are a little out there at times, but I assure you that this book has an EXCELLENT story line. I won't go into detail about the book, but I will share with you the quote that I feel came to me at the perfect time.
"Love sought is good, but given UNSOUGHT is better"
**Background: I love reading and I love quotes**
This quote was so powerful to me that I had to stop reading and start typing. Now don't get me wrong, I tried to contiue reading but my mind kept going back to those words. The quote is from William Shakespeare's Twelth Night and it was so amazing to me how the words from over 400 years ago still applied to my life today. Now I know that I shouldn't be that amazed because I always find passages in the Bible that I can apply daily to my life but this really stuck with me. I guess it's because almost every other conversation that I have with someone in my "JA Squad" (my besties) is something about me being tired of being single and wanting one of these dating zeros to turn into my hero (yeah I know that was corny but it's my blog...I can say what I want to!) And everytime that I talk to Cheezie, she always says "He will come when you aren't looking, and when he does you're not going to know what hit you!" When I read that quote from Willie S, I heard Cheezie's words instantly.
As much as I am tired of hearing those words of advice, I know that they are true. Deep, deep, deep, deep down in my heart I know that I need to exercise patience (ha, ha...riiiiight) and faith. Both of which I know that I have...but it's so hard. I guess I should view this time as a blessing. I SHOULD be taking this time to forgive myself of the mistakes that I've made and sincerely forgive others (whether they've asked for it or not), I SHOULD be letting go of relationships that are toxic to my well-being, I SHOULD be more concerned with achieving the goals that I set for myself, I SHOULD, I SHOULD, I SHOULD. I know that I'm comfortable being by myself (epecially going to the moves...$5 before noon!!!) but I'm just ready to share my time and my space with someone who's truly worth it. In no way do I feel that I'm ready to be married, but I am ready to find my best friend who I can eventually call my husband. In due time I suppose... So from today on, I am going to learn to be content "in whatsoever state I'm in." But understand me correctly, as with many things in my life, I'm content but not complacent.
Well...I just needed to get that off my chest so I could continue with the last two chapters of this book and move on to Carl Webber's new book. Yay Me!!!!