Good Evening! I typically don't do posts in the evening, but I HAD to make an exception tonight. I am freaking out and this is the only way that I can calm my nerves. I just had a line sister give me a call to let me know that the person who requested friendship earlier might have alterior motives. I listened to the story and thought it was quite funny until she started throwing out some statistics that left me a little uneasy. You see, this person asked her who on our line was single (not married, engaged, or in a relationship) and she told them three of us. Now...this number wouldn't seem so bad if there weren't TWENTY-TWO (THREE) of us on our line. Now...I started thinking about this number and I realized that I am the fifth oldest person on our line (not that age really matters) and one of three who isn't even in a relationship. Heck...I'm not even entertaining any possibilities. Then...if you know me then you know that I'm an analytical thinker, so I started looking to my inner circle. My J(A) Squad...Joe - relationship, Cheezie - married, Joneka - married, Jennifer - relationship, Angela - relationship...hmm so I'm the only one there. I even looked into my extended circle and yep...I'm the only one there too. Have I become the "one in ? number"? The more I think about it the scarier it gets. One of my greatest fears is that I will have to live the rest of my life with everyone around being able to enjoy the love and companionship that comes with having a significant other in their life and I'm just alone. I know that this is the point where I need to tell my brain to slow down because I'm only 27 and I'm thinking way too hard on this subject and that I can't judge my future by a percentage or even a number. And that's exactly what I am going to do...I'm going to pay attention to this Texans game and stop thinking about being 60y/o, in a house by myself, and living with 15 cats.
Wooosah! Thanks for letting me release and enjoy the rest of your night!
Bright Side: After I started freaking out on the phone, my line sister said something that didn't sink in until now. "Compromise the first time means there will be a second time." - Ashlee