Someone...

Hello, my name is Random Rambler and I am addicted to running. Not exercise running, but just running around. I cannot sit still for anything. Every time I say that I'm going to rest, I end up doing something. Regardless of if it's going to the movies, cleaning up, going over a friend's house...it doesn't matter. When I was in my early 20's it didn't matter but now that I'm getting older, I'm starting to feel it a lot more. An average weekend for me consists of me going to at least 3-4 events on a Saturday and another 2 on Sunday (including church). Something's gotta give...I keep telling myself that when I meet someone, I won't feel the need to always be out and about. Someone once told me that I'm afraid to be alone...and I don't think that's a far-fetched idea.

I know that I'm not alone. I always have my friends, my family, my line sisters, and a whole world of strangers that I randomly talk to when I'm out and about, but I'm starting to really feel the growing void of not having that romantic companionship in my life. I keep busy so that I don't think about it, but I can only hide so much and for so long before it catches up to me. I'm grateful that I'm not one of those people who will accept anything or anyone just for the sake of companionship. I have to stick to my standards (which I don't think are astronomically high). I'm going to be completely honest, it gets very discouraging seeing the hoes get chose ladies with not so high standards in committed relationships, and all of these dating disasters are starting to get to me. How many freaking frogs does it take to get to the prince? Just trying to keep the faith and know that whoever is for me, will be brought to me in His time and not my time. But, I'm pretty impatient... It sure doesn't help when men are like "You're single? You can't be single? Why hasn't someone snatched you up?" (If I knew the answer then maybe I wouldn't be so single! sooo...annoying)

Bright Side: I am continuing to focus on the good things that are in my life. I graduate from grad school in December (Hooray because that was the longest Fall, Spring, Summer I, Summer II, Fall EVER!!!),



Anything

This weekend (Sunday) was very draining and I'm not in the best headspace right now but, when I was doing my morning entertainment gossip check I found this song and it sums up my feelings on dating and where I am right now.  Monica's music never really disappoints me and she was "spot on" with this one!  Enjoy!

One, Two, Three Strikes...

So, i'm sitting here at the Astros game with the homies when it dawns on me that not only have I not posted this week, but I haven't given an update on my quest for "Something New". (Note: Im posting from a tablet so don't judge me for my errors...even if it has spellcheck! Lol) As much as I would love to report that he and I are going strong, I cannot. Matter-of-fact, we didn't go anywhere. The weekend that we were supposed to go to Wild West, he called to reschedule because he had to babysit his sitter. Now, I have a 9 year old sister, so I can definitely understand having to step in as a "ram in the bush" (search your Bible for the story of Abraham and Isaac on top of the mountain) So he was really interested in rescheduling, so we decided that we would go to dinner that Tuesday before I left for DC. That was perfectly fine wi me since I preferred to meet 1 on 1 so I could get to know him a little better. He said that he would call on Sunday and let me know time, place, etc. Well...Sunday came and went and nothing. Tuesday came and went and still nothing. I text but no response. Oh well...he's outta there! Crazy part is about 2 days later he sent me a Facebook friend request...no message with an apology or an explanation. Just a freaking friend request. So yeah! Bright Side: (not that I needed the confirmation but...) Now I know that ignorance knows no color. This didn't turn me off to dating outside my race, but it was another disappointment. All of these disappointments are going to make me go back into dating hibernation because someone has definitely but some bad juju in my dating life. Well...at least I have this thesis to keep me warm at night... Have a great Labor Day weekend! Be safe!